WOW!! I just read through all of my posts from 2010 and WOW!! How life has changed for the Garrett family!! I have decided to start blogging again after over 6 years because once again, I am at a time in my life where I don't know what the future holds for our family. I will start by writing about our infertility struggles as I look back and remember the feelings and frustrations of not being able to conceive and then with each new post, I will tell a new Birth Story. After that, we will see where my typing takes me....
As I read through each post, I didn't remember the side effects of the medications, or my doctors recommendations each month. What I still remember is that monthly roller coaster ride. The hopefulness followed by the hopelessness. I remember wanting a baby so badly but being afraid that I wouldn't get the chance. Now that seems so silly to me. If I hadn't gotten pregnant when I did, we would have seen a fertility specialist, done what we could with them and then if that didn't work, we would have adopted. I was always meant to be a mom. I now know that I was meant to be a mom to 2 beautiful girls. Isn't amazing how our fears can seem SO BIG and then when we look at them later, we can say, Oh well, look how great everything turned out! Even when things take unplanned detours in our lives, we usually end up exactly where we are supposed to!
Infertility is so frustrating because there are so many reasons for it, and so many different "solutions" and in the end, the best thing to do is to trust God and his plan and try to follow his guidance through prayer. But as humans, we want one problem, and one solution to fix it. We want answers now and we want the ability to plan our own lives the way we think they should go. We aren't in control. God is. Thank goodness!
In the 2 years it took us to conceive our first baby, Kortney and I were able to buy a house. And get our one car payment almost completely paid off. And we had no credit card debt that we couldn't pay off month to month because I was still working. I believe that most people are never "ready" to have a baby financially, but we were able to get a little more comfortable so that me leaving work to be a SAHM wasn't as much of a struggle. Babies are so much more of a blessing than money, but now I can look back and say that I am so glad that we had that time to build our financial situation to a better place.
More important to me than money, I am so glad we had that time as a couple. We spent several years just being us. We traveled together, we talked about our future plans and we went on countless dates. We grew together in so many ways and built a strong foundation for our marriage. I don't doubt that we would still be strong if we had been able to conceive right away, but those years are treasured. They were a struggle in many ways but we were a team!
My story of infertility has a different ending than most people. We were able to get pregnant 100% naturally. We found out on April 27, 2011 that I was pregnant and I cancelled my appointment with the specialist that was scheduled for May 12, 2011. I don't know why God chose to turn our infertility into fertility but I will PRAISE HIM for it! My prayer for anyone I meet or hear about that struggles with infertility is simply that God's will be done. He has a different plan for all of us, but if we trust Him, he will guide us towards the family we are meant to have.
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